over the pavement and through the slums, part two

I inhaled and stepped to the edge, sending several rocks plummeting. It was a full minute before I heard them find their resting place. There was nothing I wanted to do more than turn around and run nonstop for where I came. But then you came to mind. I knew I'd catch hell from you if I showed up there again. I knew I didn't want to go back there any more than you wanted me to come back. That did nothing to keep the contents of my stomach from vacating my body. After my breif illness, I settled into a state of englightenment. My only choice was to shed my fear and plummet into the vast unknown of the world below. It was my one and only choice, so it wasn't so much of a choice. I took three deep breaths and let them go one after the other, : one was for strength, one was for stability, and one was for good measure. As I cautiously toed the line between the here and now and the unknown, I cursed you under my breath. Even as I defamed your name in this fear-filled moment, I loved you more than ever. I would have never made it here on my own. Even though I knew I needed this. I threw my body to the winds and fell like a limp ragdoll.